ChibiShay

A month late but that's fine. I've been sick for a while.

A year ago in July I went to a psychiatrist for the first time. I am so thankful that my fiance pushed me to go.
Through all my years of life, 29 now, not one "professional" has assumed that I had anything wrong with me besides 'Autism.' Which, granted, I do have; but not everything stems just from Autism alone.

I have been suicidally depressed since I was about 12 years old. For a very long time I had been in a dark place with no way out. I felt suffocated, like I couldn't breathe. Every little thing was my fault because I was never good enough, smart enough, strong enough. I was a lost cause. A waste of space that had no right to any kind of happiness.

Useless.
Worthless.
Stupid.
Corrupt and evil, lacking that innocence that other kids seemed to have that had been stolen from me when I was too young to protect myself.

Before this I was unstable. I don't know how anyone can just gloss over Trauma/Stress induced Hallucinations and pass it off as 'normal' but that had been my life for a long time. Hearing voices, seeing things that weren't there, thinking others hated me because I hated myself. It was terrifying, confusing, and lonely.

The worst part? No one believed me. They thought I was doing it for 'attention.' Which just made me feel guilty for bothering people with my issues. So I never talked about them.

But for the first time since I can remember; I'm happy. The medication that I was told to take has given me back my sense of self. There are no more night terrors and no more fits of incomprehensible panic over something no one else can see or hear. I can finally breathe.

Slowly but surely I'm building myself back up as a person. I am worthy of love and affection. I have the right to exist. And no one can tell me otherwise. I have friends and family that love me for who I am, even if I'm still putting the pieces back together.

I can't apologize for who I used to be, because that person is still a part of me. But I can promise that I am moving forward and changing who I was into something better.

Thank you to everyone who has stuck by me through the years. I love you all.

I saw a preview of this game through youtube. Man, it looked awesome. So the moment I bought my PS4 I picked it up at the local EB. It didn't cost as much as I thought it would, which was great since I blew all my savings on the console.


Or whatever you call the damn menu screens.
The 'live' twitter clone in the game is brilliant. I spent so long just reading them all and chuckling to myself that my fiance gave me a funny look.
The menus are easy to get to, easy to navigate, and well organized. Fiddling around with all the suits and gadgets didn't seem like a hassle and the only issue I had with the skill trees was figuring out what I wanted more; web swinging or beating down baddies in increasingly creative ways.


Smooth as butter. Damn is it ever fun to swing through the city. The scale of the buildings makes diving toward the street, only to suddenly swoop back up into the sky, so satisfying! And the physics makes it look like you're actually gaining momentum/speed. Unlike other similar games I find I don't get dizzy or disoriented while doing it either.

Fighting enemies can be a bit of a hassle if you end up alerting the entire horde of them. But the animations and the little quips Spidey spouts make things less frustrating and more hilarious. Rather than getting discouraged when I die I find myself more determined to get back into the fray and kick some ass.

I find that Puzzles and Side Quests are some of the best parts of the game. Being a huge nerd for puzzle games it's a little annoying that they're locked behind plot progression. But the game moves so smoothly through the plot that it isn't much of an issue. Which brings me to my next point.


I haven't finished the game, not by a long shot. But the plot seems pretty straight forward so far. The main baddie of the game was easy to pick out, a little too easy maybe. I'm not the biggest fan of games that lead you along as if you couldn't figure it out for yourself. But as I've been told before I'm a bit of a guru when it comes to ruining the 'twist' for everyone when watching shows or movies.
I'll leave any further judgement until I finish the main story of the game.

Characters;

As far as I've seen the characters have been really fleshed out in this game. It's nice to see Doc Oc before he goes mental, Aunt May is a total sweetheart as usual, and Yuri is so done with your bs it's hysterical.

On the other hand; MJ parts are the worst.

I'm all for tough, go-getter, determined female characters. But MJ? She's none of these. Whenever I see her come on screen I actively groan out loud and roll my eyes. Optimism and wanting to help others are both great traits in a heroine. But whining? That doesn't exactly fill me with confidence.

"I may not have super powers but I'm not made of Glass!" Let me stop you right there, MJ. Because that is the most asinine thing I have ever heard.
Not only do you not have super powers, you don't even carry a gun! What are you going to do up against people who can jump sixty feet into the air? Blast a street to smithereens? Pick up a car and throw it at you? Nothing. Maybe run away or hide, but you damn well wouldn't survive if one of them decided they really wanted you gone.

There's nothing wrong with Stealth missions. But the writing for MJ makes it seem like she is actively trying to get herself killed for the weakest of reasons.

But the best character award goes to Taskmaster. Because it is my wholly subjective opinion that he is the most badass. His power is my favourite out of all the Marvel characters and I really wish people would put him in more things.


This game is a riot. I could spend hours just swinging around the city and snapping up the collectibles, listening to JJ yell at Spidey fans, and stopping random car chases. The writing for MJ could be a bit better but it isn't enough to make me quit the game and never come back. Since those are really the only parts I find truly annoying.

But this is all my subjective opinion. If you have something you'd like to say, or a question, feel free to contact me!